Across an Ocean of Dreams*

13.06.03 at 12:17 AM

A song of Heaven.

Oh, neato, a Quinn fanlisting. I love Quinn. I really got into Blackwood Farm. Goblin kind of scared me... The only thing that really sort of made me uncomfortable was the constant "Little Brother" thing. It was as if it was Japan, and Lestat was calling Quinn his "nii-chan" ^_^;.

I had another diet meeting today, and I lost 2 pounds this week. Ah, well. My dad and I went shopping for a bunch of new different kinds of food tonight, like chicken patties and nuggets and so forth--well, not really; there is no meat, and they are made of only vegetables. They are good, and really taste like chicken. I was surprised when I tried some this evening.

I stayed up so late with Ian last night that I did not wake up until 2:30 PM today, which is pretty bad... ^_^;. I hate getting up really late like that. After I finish with this entry, I am going to go to bed and set my alarm clock for 11 AM.

I felt really weary today, probably because of the above reason. I am not overly lonely during the daytime, but at night I am. That is why I stayed up so late with Ian--I wanted to be doing something so I would not be thinking. I think too much. Sometimes that is great, sometimes it is painful.

I am excited about the new Harry Potter novel, though, on a different note.

I found the lyrics to the following song today, and I relate to them very well.

Pictures in my Mind by Deedee O'Malley
I've seen pictures in my mind
That are definitely not this time,
This earth, this place, this face
I've seen pictures In my mind
That would definitely make you cry inside
Your heart would ache
For a long forgotten stunning place in time
A sparkling universe inside my mind
Where laughter never dies
Where I was very, very wise

I've seen colors in my mind
More vibrant more defined
More rare, more sweet, more sublime
Than the colors I have seen
In the rainbows hovering above this earth this sky
They remind me somehow of a place in time
Where beauty lives and always shines
It's light where laughter never dies
Where I was very, very wise

Now I know the truth--it lives inside me
It's always there like a guiding light
To guide me home to the place
That was definitely not this time
This earth, this face

Someday I will return
Where this longing heart has yearned to be
More free, more alive
Where I left my saddened soul
Searching longing to be whole
At peace in love running wild
I can see the future merging with my past
This time my fortunes will forever last
Where laughter never dies
Where I'll be very, very wise

-Leah

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