Major life change: I am applying to the University of Michigan to major in archaeology. Hopefully I can find some way to minor in art and theology. I just do not think that sitting in front of a computer screen all day making art would satisfy me. I love art, do not get me wrong, but to think of a life of doing only that makes me feel uneasy. I need to travel, to explore, to learn. This may sound somewhat selfish, but... please pray that I am accepted, guys. I was extremely emotional about this yesterday, crying, scared, but now I am much, much better. My English teacher has been supporting me greatly, too.

I am just so nervous. My parents expect great things from me. And I really think it is only me they have high expectations for. My brother Ian means well but he does not have a passion for learning. My brother Kenny is autistic, and now, at age nine, he is perhaps at an age four mental level, perhaps? We obviously cannot expect greatness from him immediately. So that only leaves me. Sigh. I seem to be the pride of the family. Everyone says I am so talented. That if I gave none of my wisdom away to others, that it would be lost forever. That I am an old soul. That I could do anything I wanted to do. I hope they are right. I am really afraid to disappoint.

My mom suggested... another psychic reading! I swear, whenever troubling moments come about in my life, my mom tells my dad to hook my up with Debra, our psychic. Which is great, of course. I want my mom to get to go to a psychic sometime. It is quite an experience, and she would enjoy it.

I mean a real psychic of course, not those crap ones that have 1-900 numbers.

There have been whisperings of our family getting a reading from Sylvia Browne. It is so expensive, though... That is the price for true wisdom, though, I suppose.

I have been eating far too many Cheetos of late. I am really addicted to all cheese sorts of things... Macaroni and cheese, string cheese, mozzarella sticks, etc. I need to break that addiction just a little bit ^_^.

I really want a salad right now for some reason, but it is about 10 PM, and I do not really want to make one this late. I will have one tomorrow, then. Maybe it is because I had no leafy green stuff to eat today. Well, I did have a veggie-chicken sandwich for lunch. Veggie-chicken as in, it looks and tastes like chicken but it has no meat in it, only vegetable. Those are really, really good, and less calories than regular chicken. I like the veggie-buffalo wings a lot, too. The veggie-chicken nuggets are okay, but they are not my favorite. The veggie-bacon is just icky, though. These are all Morning Star products I am talking about, by the way. I think I eat one Morning Star meal every day, just about.

Anyway, enough about fake chicken.

Another addiction, though: Clearly Canadian. I like all three flavors, cherry, blackberry, and strawberry melon. They are basically a fancy sort of carbonated water.

Oh, why am I talking about food? ^_^.

Anyway, I am off to bed. G'night, everyone ^_^.